It’s not to difficult to figure out WHO this book is about. The first chapter is titled “Big Angel’s Last Saturday.” The first words to the novel: “Big Angel was late to his own mother’s funeral.” In Spanish, Big Angel translates to Angelote, I mean, if I were to look it up, that’s what I would find, but I’m not sure if the definition does Angelote justice. Angelote is the in the center of everything. He is the patriarch of his family on both sides of the border that separates the United States and Mexico. From the beginning to the end of the book, he sets rules and expectations for how his friends and family are to act and behave, but apparently these rules don’t appy to him. I mean, he was LATE to his OWN MOTHER’S FUNERAL My mother doesn’t speak much Spanish, but she knows a lot of Yiddish. In Yiddish they would call Angelote a “Makher,” someone who thinks he/she is overly important. In Spanish, I think they call people like Angelote a “Cabron!”
I’m not writing a book report here, but I enjoyed this book so much, I read it TWICE: once in English, and then again in Spanish. It’s like the third or fourth Luis Urrea book or novel I’ve read. Like many of my students, Luis has lived on both sides of the border. Luis’s father was born in Sinaloa and his mother comes from New York. I’m not sure where they met, but Luis was born in Tijuana and raised in San Diego. In all of his books, he devotes ample time to his vision of The American Dream. From the beginning to the end in House of Broken Angels, Angelote has been on a mission to create a better life for his family. He has been estranged from his younger brother, also named Angel, but referred to in the novel as Little Angel (or Angelito). Angelito has always despised his older brother for his Old-School, Macho ways. Angelito is like a New-School Chicano, more sensitive and worldly. Where Angelote is shown to scratch and claw for everything he has ever believed in, Angelito abandoned the family early to pave his own way. The author’s BIG IDEA is to bring everyone together one last time before it’s too late, and spoiler alert: HE DOES.
If I were to run in to Angelote, like at work, in the neighborhood, Starbucks; I’m afraid I would never get a chance to know him very well. I would keep my distance. From my sideways glance, I can see he’s got an attitude, like he thinks he’s Bigger than Life. He has something to say to everybody, even the most casual of strangers. In the first chapter, he throws party a for himself. TO CELEBRATE HIMSELF. Because it’s his party, he talks down to everyone. I’m sixty-five, and he’s closing in on seventy. The difference in age is not that much, but I would always get the feeling he’s talking down to me. Like I just don’t know anything. How can I? I’m a gringo. He has lived his life with a chip on his shoulder. He has fought his way up from poverty in Mexico to live the good life just north of La Jolla. For forty years, he he has worked for Pacific Gas and Electric. He’s now an executuve with his own desk. He’s a boss. He's a jefe. This is the guy who takes great pride in his wristwatch. It’s BIG. That’s so everyone can see it. To be exact, it's a 43mm Invicta Dragon Lupah watch. The kind you might see on the writst of a bomber pilot. He liked to tap it. Like it was a musical instrument. I don’t think he’s making any fashion statement here, but he’s telling the world that he got to where he is now by coming in early and leaving late. He wants to make sure everyone knows that. It doesn’t matter that no one really knows what he does all day. That’s beside the point.
I DON’T LIKE WATCHES. I do not carry a cell phone where I can access it so easily. For me, once you begin thinking more the time of day, you think less of what you should be doing. Watches are a distraction. The symbolism is lost on me. In college I studied Kafka. Kafka super-power was his writing. He is now considered a literary genius, but during his lifetime he felt overwhelmed by his own misery and loneliness. From what I read about his writing process, he could create a brilliant sentence in one minute and want to throw himself out a window in the next. Wearing a watch could throw him off the deep end, for he would constantly check the time to see how long he had been sitting there at his desk pen-in-hand without writing anything substantial. I found this poem about Kafka in a book written by another one of my literary heroes, Raymond Carver. It’s called "Kafka’s Watch." Kafka may have been the polar opposite of Angelote, but for me their relationships to their watches will always remain significant.
I feel the pressure of the full eight or nine hours even in the last half hour of the day. It’s like a train ride lasting night and day. In the end you’re totally crushed. /You no longer think about the straining of the engine, or about the hills ofl at country, but ascribe all that’s happening to your watch alone. / The watch which you continually hold in the palm of your hand. Then shake. And bring slowly to your ear in disbelief.
But nevertheless, I LOVE Angelote. I take full responsibility for going off track here with my Kafka/Carver reference. But I can’t stop myself. In reading and re-reading The House of Broken Angels, I begin to see the sadness that Angelote carries deep inside his heart. At first, I couldn't help thinking that Angelote was all about Angelote, but after 300 pages I see that his love for his FAMILY is bigger than his love for HIMSELF. This is the way he rolls. He embeds himself into the lives of his family and friends, whether they like it or not. He CARES, but in seventy years he hasn't really learned how to show it. In his mind, getting everyone in one place for one last party is the best of all worlds. Only a few people know this: He has terminal cancer, and his doctors have told him he only has days to live. He's bound to a wheel chair. He is suffering so badly, his daughters need to help him bathe and go to the bathroom. This has to be a painful ending for such a Macho-Man. But, he's not going to give anyone the satisfaction of seeing his pain. That's why they call him Angelote.
In the night before he dies, Anglelote feels good about everything he has done at the party, and for that matter, feels immense pride for everything he has done in seventy years. NO REGRETS. This leads us to a tender and naked moment he spends with Perla, his beloved wife. Of course, he is on so many medications that prevent him from performing in bed, but that is not really his objective either. He wants to tell his wife on this night, Perla, how much he loves her. This is a tear-jerker, because the book begins with a chapter that describes the day he met her. It’s a poetic moment. This follows maybe 24 hours of difficult conversation with his little brother, Angelito. They reminisce about pain and sorrow of their ongoing separation. Their stories are different, but truths are the same. FAMILY is EVERYTHING.
I’m sorry I may have implied Angelote was a cabrón. Too few of us will understand what it was like for Luis Urrea to grow up in poverty-stricken, violence-ridden Tijuana, or for that matter, what it was like for Angelote to provide for his family in third-world Sinaloa. This book is full of sorrow and frustration. Grief, sadness, regrets. In the end, yes he does miss his own mother’s funeral. He can’t stand on his own two legs. He’s confined to a wheelchair. He’s not Big. He looks Small. But that doesn’t mean he will not push forward. In the dawn’s early light, Angelote sees his American Dream come to fruition. His family gives him the strength to do so. Today, he believes, and on to tomorrow. Luis Urrea writes, ”This is the prize: to realize, at the end, that every minute was worth fighting for with every ounce of blood and fire.”